And here I am...
We have gone over a few sour ones well enough to program our minds that if something seems like seeming wrong... run [whatever your name is]
There are the majority few who do not play by the rules and prefer not using carry-overs from their previous relationships. This is because they believe in starting with a clean slate every time.
Of course, the new version of the slate is the same as the previous one. But still, there seems to be some pleasure in erasing and filling up the slate again.
But why waste space over people who do not go by the rules?
Back to the normals.
We generally come to a resigned state where we start searching for some new gender to mix some things up. Please note that we do not avoid them totally. Acquaintances, contacts, friends of friends and many more passers-by are not treated bad at all. Just that the internal computer boots up every time you come across one of them and starts flashing various warnings all around as each levels of limits are reached.
Ironically, a few of them prefer ones who let them enjoy their space without prying/annoying/disturbing/invading/attacking too much, though they may not always return the favor.
And even then, among this whole maze, we do find someone who we feel is a little more closer to us and we too like them.
This relationship also passes smoothly. Nothing much eventful... It is the upward phase, remember? Then as always... a small drop falls... but hey, it's just a drop. However, reactions vary from being drowned in a drizzle to being struck by lightening.
It's time for the Post-incident-analysis now. Remember, you are supposed to ask every possible question you can (related to the incident though).
Unfortunately this time, most answers are quite good. They seem to be genuine. No open ends anywhere. Well, not 100% fool-proof, but these answers give you more reasons to be optimistic than pessimistic.
And then it strikes you hard. Real hard, mind you. And the thought of what you are going to think pains you. A wry smile is all you can manage.
Even though, you are sad of having made a mistake after quite some time (poor ego, by the way), you still manage to smile at the end because you found a person worthy of a good relationship.
You desperately hope to patch things up while a new thought occurs to you. "What if they mistake me now and get funny thoughts in their head". The answer follows. "Yes, I made a mistake. But if they ask, I am ready to explain". Before that, you take the first step in patching.
All's well that ends well. Some rules become relaxed. But again, not too easy though. We don't want ! striking again.
One size does not fit all. And that keeps you guessing. So, which one actually suits you?
Previous experiences help you narrow down to a small number. From then on, try each one... simple (not really).
[Dedicated to a friend whom I mistook for a few small reasons (It didn't seem too small in my opinion then though). I thought I had a fine series of reasons. But truth beat fiction out. Sorry dear, but don't we all make mistakes... isn't that how we learn? Happy that we grew stronger through it. Like you a lot. Maybe, that's why.]
==Ends here as of now==
